Hopeless to Hope

Hope

Their union, so many years ago, born with such hope. Heart of love, living on a dream. Cause for anguish became apparent early in their relationship. Of course, it would only happen once, she told herself. The resulting damage, overlooked, this time. If only she knew, it was just beginning.

Faith

Soon enough, the transition into an adult began. As months became years, hope became faith. Faith of a teen mother. Her family would be saved. All she must do is believe. Ignore the fear. Fight the despair. Blind faith carried her forward.. for she loved him.

Love

Her only weapon in this battle was love. The onslaught to her spirit, the spirit that would become her ghost. Her ghost, the harbor for the pain.. the physical pain, the emotional pain. His words causing the most suffering. For the body heals much faster than the soul. Her love would be able to mend these faults within him, the scars within her, as well as the scars upon her. No matter what lie ahead, she could endure.. for love.

Patience

The race became a marathon, endurance the key. Searching for an answer to this mystery.. why she was so hated. Understanding became the next move in this horrific game, understanding him. Finally, the uncovering of betrayal, many a betrayal by him, destroyed what remained of her heart. Heartbreak upon heartbreak, pain ever present. Her world.. a haunted place.

Despair

In that last year, hope faded, faith dissolved, love lost.. despair took their place. She existed, only. Each day, a struggle to face. Her childhood gone, her passion gone, her innocence gone, her desire to go on gone. Hope.... gone.

Hopeless

All was lost. Unable to escape this hell. Doubt, fear, self loathing immobilized her. Her only escape from this hell.. a place to read of others speaking of "normal" lives. In time, she began to write her thoughts. Left in a place for the world to see, a place where she would never hear, "If you talked about things I cared about, I would listen". If rejected, she would never know.
Unknown to her, someone was watching, waiting for what she shared next. Someone felt loneliness in her words. Words such as ~ Naked strength ~ baring all ~ stark beauty ~ vulnerable ~ stands the winter tree ~

~ how did he know ~ how did he know ~ my heart so well hidden ~ he knew ~

This kindred spirit reached out. This spirit, wanting to heal the pain, to become a friend. In the darkest recesses of her was revealed her spirit. Not gone, only in hiding. He coaxed her out, tenderly touching the deepest scars and the wounds still fresh. Belief shone a light into her. This belief gave courage, this courage gave strength, the strength to escape this hell. A spirit, a life on the edge of death, was reborn. Though struggles may come, battles yet to face.. with this best friend, this healer, hope and faith has returned.

Hopeless to Hope